Why did I look so miserable? Did I want a different one?

Will Eaves is a novelist, essayist and poet.

His most recent collection is Invasion of the Polyhedrons’ (CB Editions ) Eaves: Sleeping with me was like having sex with a cutlery service.

Later, in our careers, we looked back. There was that, in hindsight, an awful moment when you said, well, I had to make a choice.