Living with an attraction to children.

Leonard Johnston was 13 years old when he discovered he was sexually attracted to young boys.

Johnston says he has never hurt a child, but it's up to him to choose how to live with it.

For most people, the defining feature of life as a pedophile is loneliness.

Johnston : "You can be a good person. You don’t have to be lonely".

Leonard: I live a double life, obscuring details of my identity to protect myself.

Leonard: Like anyone, and maybe even more than most, I am horrified at child abuse, and I want abusers to be arrested and punished.

Some pedophiles are also attracted to adults, some aren’t; many keep this deep and fundamental secret from their spouse.

Self-hatred is a huge problem. Online communities are very different from each other.

Author: Banning fiction would isolate people, isolate them, and that’s a mistake.

Science research about pedophilia and how to treat us is atrocious, and there is little research and training for therapists.