I applied for a job selling T-shirts on the Girls Gone Wild tour. I had no idea what I was in for

The Girls Gone Wild " Merch Girl " job was a door-to-door sales gig for Staples .

She was hired to sell booty shorts, tank tops, thongs and thongs to the drunken masses at bars and nightclubs.

Bars paid to have the girls show up at their venue and the crew used those events to scout for hot girls to film for GGW DVDs.

A few of the male Girls Gone Wild crew members were great and made it possible for me to last as long as I did on the tour.

The problem was that all of us were working on a project with a flawed premise—and it didn't bring out our best behavior.

Exploiting girls was part of the business model.

All I heard was a full account of what was “wrong” with them on a physical, sexual, and sometimes mental/emotional level.

The real life behind those bright, bouncy infomercials was bleak. I lasted about seven weeks . I left the tour with what felt like the weight of the world on my shoulders and a cloud over my head; I felt dirty and guilty.